New Woman

I feel like a new woman.
I have done some things lately that I never would have dreamed.
For example...
Six Flags Great America.
I have always HATED roller coasters.
HATED them!
I was so scared of heights.
And so scared that I wouldn't fit in the seat.

Yesterday I went on a roller coaster
That shoots you straight up into a curl
At 65 miles per hour
In about 5 seconds.
Then you go backwards and straight up again.

I went on the Superman ride
Where you hang down like you're flying.
I had my hands out the whole time
And sang the Superman theme song
While soaring down the hill and up through a loop.
Ashlee kept yelling at me to shut up.
It was so much fun.

I wore a tank top to the park.
With my bathing suit top underneath.

Two years ago the kids and I wanted to go on the swings.
I wanted to relive my youth of the carnival days.
Ashlee had to squish me into the swing
And it hurt because I was squeezed into it.
When the ride was over
I tried to get out and my butt got stuck in the swing.
It was so embarrassing.

Yesterday we all went on them again
And I had plenty of room to spare.
It was so much more fun this time.

While waiting in line for Superman
There was a group of boys behind us.
A larger lady was getting strapped into the ride
And the workers had to do it twice to make sure it was secure.
The boys started making fun of her
And how she couldn't fit like a glove into the seat.
I felt so bad for her.

I remember how that felt.
The embarrassment of getting kicked off because I was too big.
I gave the boys the evil eye.
I should have said something
But I restrained myself.
They were boys, about 12 and don't know any better.
I just hope they all get beer bellies one day.

Stuck

Wow, it's been a while since I've written.
Nothing is new here in the weight department.
I'm actually a little stuck.
I've been stuck for about 3 months now.
At least I'm not gaining!
I'm at 175 and holding.
I'm happy.

I have a tremendous amount of energy.
The other day I did all of this AFTER I came home from school:
Cut ALL of the grass.
Scrubbed the back deck, table, chairs and junk.
Roller bladed 2 miles.

Yesterday we went to Great America in Illinois.
I fit on everything I went on!
Even the wooden roller coaster.
I better fit on that coaster in Kentucky this year.
I even went on the Superman ride.
That's the biggest roller coaster I've ever been on.
Fear of heights or fear of not fitting on the ride?
What really was my excuse for not going on them in the past?

Say No To Jalepeno Bites at 3 a.m.

If you've been tracking my stats to the right
You'll notice that I gained like 3 pounds.
Tip: Don't eat jalapeno bites from Arby's at 3:30 a.m.
Probably NOT the greatest dieting habit.

But come on...
You go out and have a good time.
You need something at 3 a.m. to refuel!
You would think jalapeno bites would ruin me..but they didn't.
I survived and they were good.
I just know that I have to shovel more snow today to work it off.

We went out to the bar last night again.
I wore a white tank top with a long sleeve white shirt over it.
I had a cute hat on too.
It is so much more fun going to the bar now.
I actually had a girl drag ME out on the dance floor with her.
The jell-o shot guy actually gave ME a free one.
I even felt so confident as to take off my long sleeve shirt for a bit.
I even sang kareoke for the first time in my life and loved it.

Towards the end of the night I saw two girls off to the side.
One girl had to have easily been about 400 lbs.
Her girlfriend was probably around my starting weight.
I felt bad for the bigger one because she was sort of dancing
But she was all hot and looked tired.
I wanted to go dance with them, but I didn't want to get my butt kicked.

I just related.
I remembered what that felt like.
To be in the back corner on a stool..not dancing and not having fun.
No one ever looked at me or ever asked me to dance.
I hated dancing because I thought people were laughing at me
And I felt like I was bumping into people.
Even Tammy didn't like dancing with me back then because I made her too hot.

Next time I see those girls I'm going to dance with them.
I'm such a shy person...I just can't jump in and dance with a random person.
I ran out of time last night to dance with them
Because we closed down the bar once again!

Bathing Beauty

Current Weight: Don't know...on vacation.
Total Lost: Somewhere around 105 lbs.

Right now I'm supposed to be at school.
The day back from break...yuck.
I should be in first hour right now yelling at people to get their projects done.
But where am I instead?
Wisconsin Dells...The Glacier Canyon Lodge
It's part of the Wilderness Resort.
Huge place with 3 indoor water parks.

Now...why is this entry in my bypass blog?
I just had to share how proud of myself I am.
Last year...same time...getting up to those water slides was a chore.
I ran out of breath.
I had to take a break half way up the stairs.
My heart raced.
Getting into and out of a tube was embarrassing.

This year....
I flew up those stairs.
No breaks.
Tons of breath left.
And I ran back up there three times in a row.
It felt good.

My bathing suit hangs off of me, but where do you buy a new suit in January?
I'm wearing shorts to hide my thighs and the shorts are too big!
I have so much more confidence in myself.
I'm not embarrassed to walk around in my suit this year.
I just feel so good about myself these days.

If this was as low as I got...I'd be happy.